So as you may already know, the Zelda OLED switch was announced today. I am really excited for it and I sadly cannot afford it. I am very poor, like POOR poor, living commission to commission, poor.

Well I just briefly mentionned that I was sad for not being able to afford it on a Discord server and this kid was just flexing on how they'll be able to have it for their birthday, how they got 2000€ last year and have "so much money they don't know what to do with it" they even told me "I'd paypal you some but I've spent it on plushies" which was the last nail of the coffin for me.

I felt awful all day, have a headache and just feel sick. i feel horrible, I feel like anything I do is just- worthless.

I try and I try to make it as an artist and I just can't succeed. I just feel like giving it all up.

I work hard to try and earn money and the ONE time I want to treat myself, I cant.

I'm not someone that spends money carelessly, the last treat I took was last month for a VRC model which was very cheap and I am even paying it in multiple times.

And now I really REALLY want something and I've learnt to work hard to earn what I want. But I do work hard, day and night. But I can't earn anything. It's really tiring.

Sorry for such a post I'm just- I guess I just need someone to see this. I'm sorry.

If you've read this far...

You can also vent in the comments about anything, I'll be there to listen, since you've listened to me <3